The present has me thinking a lot about why I started this blog in the first place. A lot of people think this is easy and rewarding, but it can be exactly the opposite at times. I have my days where I just want to give up, but I never do. There’s something about it that has just kept me going and there are a lot of reasons behind why I started my blog and why I continue to write.
I wanted to find myself
Blogging wasn’t a completely foreign territory to me when I started this one. The thing is, though, I had never consistently stuck with one before. I broke the mold when I signed up for a brand new Blogger account and typed in the URL breakfastatjillians.blogspot.com… Ever since then, I’ve been growing an improving: I modified the template several times, played with my writing style, and changed the URL, of course.
But, Just Gigi started off as a place where all I was trying to do was find myself. Almost two years ago I started this journey at the end of my Junior year of high school. I wanted an escape from reality. To get away from all the homework and ACT tests, and not to mention a breakup months before that left me devastated and feeling alone. Most of all, I wanted to take my mind off of everything and pursue my new love for fashion.
I developed a voice
People started commenting and it gave me a rush of excitement. It also filled the loneliness I felt in my life. My readers are truly my friends and keep me going whether they know it or not. (So, thank you!). Within a few months of blogging, I could feel myself healing. I was happier, I had gotten a job at American Apparel, I finally felt that I was breaking through my insecurities.
I consider myself an introvert, but when I blog, I don’t feel that way anymore. It takes me away from it. I also give credit to working in retail. It I hadn’t I think I wouldn’t have developed the people skills I have.
I can’t give up on this
The previous content of this post is easy for me to talk about. This part: not so much. I know that I won’t give up on this blog no matter what happens. But, what I don’t know is where I want to be with my life. Starting college this year has been both enlightening and frustrating. Do I really know what I want? Where I want to be? I’m almost certain I know, deep down inside, but I’ve held it back and now, well, I’m taking one day at a time because that’s all I can do to keep myself going.
I truly want to be the best blogger and girl I can be. To do so, I need to focus on the things I love, and honestly, my lifestyle does not allow for that anymore. If I am struggling to write a Philosophy paper, all I can think about is how I have this great idea for a blog post. I feel like my creativity has been put in a cage, and trust me: it’s really fighting to break out.
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This was in place of an interview this week. I’ve been home for Thanksgiving and scrambled to get a post out this week. There will definitely be one next Monday though, so keep your eyes open!
I hope you all had a great holiday. I’d love to hear your feedback about this post or any of the interviews. And, I just want to hear from you guys; like I said, you keep me writing. You were all at the top of my Thanksgiving “thankful for…” list.